UPDATE August 30:
Gov. Rick Perry accepted a recommendation from the state parole board and said today he would spare condemned prisoner Kenneth Foster from execution and commute his sentence to life. ~ tina
I delivered the letter from Kenneth to Michael’s father yesterday. I feel horrible. And now, all I have left right now are doubts, doubts about everything. I don’t doubt what I did was the right thing. I know it was. I just thought it would be easier. Instead everything has become so complex, so complicated. There is no black and white, as I thought there would be, only gray.
Silly me, I imagined when the time came for me to live up to my principles that I would feel different, that I would feel somehow ennobled or better about life or free of the sadness and anguish I feel for this whole situation. I miss Mike. And I am so angry right now that I have to go through this.
Yesterday I sat through an hour long interview for some Italian TV company. A full hour of questions. Nothing but questions: “How long did I know Mike? What would Mike think about what you are doing now? What are his parents like? His brothers? His friends? How do you feel about Kenneth Foster? About the death penalty? Why are you doing this?”
Why am I doing this? Because Kenneth’s execution is wrong in every conceivable way. That’s why. read more after the jump
And now, more media is calling. For them this is the stuff of ratings. Never mind that it will lead to the death of a man who is trying to be better, trying to redeem himself. Nevermind that the ratings come on the back of my friend’s cruel murder. No one in the media will lift a finger to correct this injustice. Ratings gold!
So, here I sit, left with an ache, an empty hole whistling through my gut, whispering nothing but doubts. I’m running on empty and yet consumed with guilt: I must do everything I can to prevent this man’s death otherwise I am a fraud.
Why is it so easy for man to dish out what they like to call down here in Texas hard, rough justice, and yet so hard for humans to show mercy?