Face to Face With The Train Wreck That Is Our Foreign Policy


If life is like a candle bright/Then death must be the wind
You know you can close your window tight/And it still comes blowing in

So I will climb the highest hill/And I'll watch the rising sun
And I pray that I won't feel the chill/Till I'm too old to die young ~Kieran Kane

I had a rough night last night. What started out innocently enough as a few shots of raki with The Afghan turned into an absolute fucking nightmare.

I don't understand why this man doesn't want to kill me. I really don't. If his country had flown jets at 15,000 feet in a hunt for some damned Texas Secessionists (yes, they do exist) and bombed my family's farm instead, killing my father, mother, eight year old sister and 15 year old brother and youngest son I'd be out for blood every time I met an Afghan, or at the very least I'd never speak to one, under any circumstances.

It's a testament to his humanity that Mahmoud sees me as a friend. He calls me 'brother Sean' now.

How do I begin? First, full disclosure, I have absolutely no way of verifying any of this. Take it all with a grain of salt and in the context (lots of Raki) in which the night evolved. What follows is a highly abbreviated version of last night.

I came home about 830pm after stopping at the corner store for my usual dinner, a touch of sausage, fresh tomatoes, lemons, green and black olives, fresh farm cheese and a loaf of sesame bread. I dropped my bags in my room and wandered into the kitchen to prepare my meal.

More after the jump.

Mahmoud was there with a Turkish friend, having just opened a bottle of 'Yeni Raki.' We made small talk while I ate. Mahmoud asked several times if I wanted some raki and I repeatedly said no. But it was one of those social situations--the Turkish guy, Fuat, spoke great English and acted as translator--where it is not cool to say no to Muslim hospitality.1 So, Mahmoud poured me a shot--I said no to the Fanta mixer--and downed it.

Mahmoud was showing off his new cell-phone and the wonders of American porn he found on the internet. We all laughed, acting like the crass men we are. Much small talk was had, men just being men, talking about stupid shit.

I hate black licorice, which is how Raki tastes: aniseed and high proof alcohol aren't a good mix. But after a few minutes, that warm fuzzy feeling came over me (which is rather the same sensation tequila gives me, and very dangerous) and Mahmoud, already well into his cups started talking about life in Afghanistan.

"I'm Tajik," he said through Fuat, "and I fought with Ahmed Shah in the Panjshir Valley. Do you know who Ahmed Shah was?"

"Sure do," I replied. "The Lion of the Panjshir."

Mahmoud smiled at that and continued, "before 2001 life was hard. I watched my elder bother die when the Taliban attacked us in 2000. But we had better guns, from the Russians. We usually won the fight. The Panjshir, this place, is hard to get into. We fought hard. So much blood. But then bin Laden killed all those Americans in New York. And then you came," he said pounding his fist on the table, "smashing the Taliban." He smiled. His loathing and contempt for the Taliban is total.

He poured another shot for all three of us and down they went. I continued listening, warm and fuzzy, inhabiting the moment.

"For Tajiks we were happy. No more Pashtoo (here he spit the word out) making life hell for everyone. I am Shi'a. I am a Muslim. And they call me 'Kafir!' I want to pray in peace. But the Pashtoo are Afghans who think they are from Arabia. Desert people. They hate everything. Raki, music, women, fun. We all hated the Pashtoo. And now you," he pointed at me, "came and we had hope."

My heart sank upon hearing this word, for hope is a dangerous thing. I knew where this story was going, but I stayed, too wracked by raki to leave my seat.

"Until a few years ago life was good. But like all things you Americans do, you didn't finish the job. And the Taliban returned. At first it wasn't bad. But then the bombings started. Your bombings," he said. He wasn't accusing me, but he was angry.

"You planes were bombing everyone now. Not just the Taliban. When we heard the jets we all ran home. But one day," he started crying, but managed to stifle it and continue. "One day you bombed a farm. My family's farm. Father, mother, sister, one brother, baby boy all dead. Only wife and son live. Maybe brother, but I don't know."2

He broke down now, full heaving sobs, unable to continue. This proud, lovely, lonely man. So kind to me. So helpful. So curious.

Fuat apologized profusely, carrying Mahmoud to his room. He was beyond drunk at this point.

I was horrified. Stunned. Tears welled up in mine own eyes, as all sorts of uncomfortable questions formed in my raki-addled brain, heart swimming with shame.

"Am I to blame?" I asked myself. "No, you weren't flying the jet." But then I'd reply, "but what have you really done? Blogged about the mess? Criticized it? And yet, your taxes pay for it?" It was all too much for me, so I stepped out into the cool Istanbul night. Lit up a smoke, dragged deeply and just sat in silence. There was a crisp chill in the air, my clothes blowing gently in the night breeze. It was late, 1230am or so. I tried to sober up, stumbled into my room and slept.

It was the shouting that woke me. 230am. But it wasn't shouting. It was sheer grief. Something inside Mahmoud had come undone. He was pounding on the walls of his room. A nightmare, perhaps?

The Belgian models on the third floor were terrified. Michael, the German, threatened to call the landlord. The French girl on the first floor was crying as well. The Canadian on the fourth floor slept through it all. And no one has any idea what the Mongols were saying. Incomprehensible gibberish, worse than any drunken Tajik's ravings.

Mahmoud was inconsolable. I sat with him. Holding his hand. Listening to his wails in Dari, the sounds of dhizkr and an azan mixed, from an old, broken muezzin.

I couldn't understand a word, but I understood, if only a little, his grief. I've never had death rained down on me from 15,000 feet and pray I never do. But in that moment it didn't matter.

I called his friend Fuat. He came quickly. After an hour we managed to get Mahmoud to bed.

I thanked Fuat. He just smiled.

"This has happened before. But only once. Thank you for calling me and not Murat (the landlord)," he said.

"What can I do?" I asked.

"Pray."
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1 Christianity has it's cardinal virtues, such as prudence, justice, restraint, faith, hope, etc . . . So does Islam. One of the cardinal virtues of Islam is generosity or hospitality. From the Koran: ""Give of the good things which ye have (honorably) earned, and of the fruits of the earth which We have produced for you." (2:267) It is a virtue not to be taken lightly. I cannot reinforce this enough.

2 I was unable to get the precise date of his family's tragedy. But it has happened before and is still happening. Take this article as proof.


Sean Paul Kelley April 15, 2009 - 2:59am

From the Koran: ""Give of the good things which ye have (honorably) earned, and of the fruits of the earth which We have produced for you." (2:267) It is a virtue...

and be a friend, the sweetest fruit earth produces. Open hearts make for light loads. You possessed your answer all along.

Arnie April 15, 2009 - 5:06am

We incurred debts to Afghanistan -- big ones -- over a period most conveniently measured in decades. My view, the only thing worse than killing a friend's family because we were trying to wage war on the cheap [and we've done that in spades] is to do that and then walk away because the war has come into conflict with our domestic political and social zeitgeist. In making decisions here we need to be a whole hell of a lot less concerned with what this is costing us in terms of blood and treasure and a whole hell of a lot more concerned as to what our decisions cost the Afghans. I'm adamantly opposed to this notion that we can largely pull out and periodically smash al-Qa`eda from afar whenever it re-generates sufficient capability to pose a threat to our interests in part precisely because it ensures that we'll kill more families, and because we'll do so to no purpose that any Afghan would recognize.

“The absence of any US-Iran bilateral channel...may have the perverse effect of reinforcing Iranian interest in progressing in the nuclear realm so that the US will be forced to take it seriously and engage it directly." ~ Richard Haass

JustPlainDave April 15, 2009 - 8:27am

really complete rethink about Afghanistan, but that will take time. First I've got to ride out this horrific raki-induced hangover.

“Is not our first thought to go on the road? The road is our source, our vault of treasures, our wealth. Only on the road does the ‘traveller’ feel like himself, at home.”
Ryszard Kapuscinski

Sean Paul Kelley April 15, 2009 - 8:31am

Enough to keep me away from the Arak (mostly) and I do love good Lebanese Arak - in moderation: respectful, cautious, experience-driven moderation [ugh stomach's roiling just remembering, my sympathies].

“The absence of any US-Iran bilateral channel...may have the perverse effect of reinforcing Iranian interest in progressing in the nuclear realm so that the US will be forced to take it seriously and engage it directly." ~ Richard Haass

JustPlainDave April 15, 2009 - 9:26am

Although our domestic concerns are of importance to me I have argued, with you, that our continued involvement in places like Afghanistan can only have the results SP writes of unless and until we completely reform the way our military forces do business. Insofar as this is patently unlikely at any time within which our continued involvement takes place I favor withdrawal. We have a far better chance of reforming our diplomatic and aid side than we do our military.

Much like any other raging force of nature we have done our harm. If we stick around any longer we will continue to compound that harm. Because we are people, not nature, we have a continuing obligation but it is one that our military is simply incapable of fulfilling at this time. Just like after any storm it is up to the Afghans and the Iraqis to clean up after our mess. I would rather try a civilian Marshall Plan, with its attendant risks, than risk doing more military harm.

hvd April 15, 2009 - 10:20am

...the prospects of a population-centred COIN campaign is in my view reflective of exactly the type of military reform that you speak of. US forces, and to lesser extent coalition forces, have learned a great deal about waging war more effectively in this context. The overriding question is whether we have the resources - and more immediately, the will to do so with any prospect of success. My view, the Taliban have been granted so much breathing space and have developed so much capability that "easy" approaches that could have yielded relatively decisive outcomes are no longer tenable and we are left with quite a bad set of potential approaches that at best lead to much less decisive outcomes.

Of all the strategies that I have seen on offer I lean most towards a modified Dorronsoro approach - giving clear indications that a drawdown of our forces is inevitably going to occur, thinking very hard about what areas we can hold and which we can't, and focusing on building native Afghan institutions and capabilities so that they have a chance of countering the Taliban. Notably what this leads to is not a massive military "surge" aimed at the south and east but rather a statement that we are willing to be engaged at a moderate level over the long term. This to occur in conjunction with the type of civilian engagement you seek. Such civil side development is crucial, but it can be pretty much guaranteed that said civilian engagement isn't going to occur without some sort of military component - without security all that happens is the aid workers provide easy pickings for the Taliban.

As an aside, the problem with the "force of nature" analogy is that it presupposes that only staying causes harm, while leaving does not. There's abundant evidence that this is not the case - look to the events of '96, for instance.

“The absence of any US-Iran bilateral channel...may have the perverse effect of reinforcing Iranian interest in progressing in the nuclear realm so that the US will be forced to take it seriously and engage it directly." ~ Richard Haass

JustPlainDave April 15, 2009 - 4:02pm

out of money and soon won't be able to afford a monstrous-sized military.

Saying, "I'm sorry" doesn't have much effect when your military killed soooo many, many people. Best you could do is briefly put your arms around your new friend and wait 'til he regains emotional stability. Don't ever again join him in a drinking binge.

We made that mistake one Christmas with my step-father. He never would talk about WWII. We deliberately got him drunk and then questioned him. He broke down into tears, then racking sobs, as he began describing some of his war experiences about the medal he received for saving fellow, Royal marines on his bombed corvette. I've never been so ashamed of myself. He'd managed to close that part of himself off and we opened those wounds. There's good reasons why vets won't talk about the horrors they saw. Only insensitive military people tell others about blood and gore. A military person came back from WWII and began telling my mother about the details of my father's death in Sicily--she kicked him out of the house before he could finish his horrid tale. What person in their right mind wants to hear blow-by-blow descriptions of a loved one's final, agonizing minutes!

If its any consolation, President Obama isn't cut from the same cloth as previous Presidents. He's offering olive branches instead. Remarkable to, at last, see policy changes toward Cuba.

canuck April 15, 2009 - 11:17am

Always have been from the beginning when my country pioneered them against an unprotected town and always will be unless they can be made as precise as a sniper's bullet. Karma wasn't kind on my country I hope it will be less brutal on yours.

If the Afghan makes it to Canada and ends up in the Toronto area drop me a line. I'd be happy to help.

quax April 15, 2009 - 11:21am

as Empires go, the United States presence wasn't overly lengthy. Empires do horrific things. What will the future China's be like and for how long? Might rapid communication help mitigate the damage it can do?

Believe the world is very aware of every death that the United States caused. That wasn't the case in the past.

The days of troops being cannon fodder are long gone. The world does revolve slowly, but it does make turns for the betterment of societies.

Women in advanced countries have only had the vote for less than 100 years. Less advanced countries are getting nearer despite strong objections erupting into violence as older ideas are being uprooted. Modern societies still have a long way to go. Judgement about the world's progress need waylaying. Is the glass half-empty or half-full? depends on perspective.

canuck April 15, 2009 - 12:45pm

I assume you are responding to my Marshall Plan reference above. I used the term loosely. I was responding to Dave's undoubtedly correct idea that we owe something to these nations that we have ravaged. He argues that it requires a continued military presence. I believe that is impossible given the current organization and mission of our military without causing incredible additional harm. Thus the suggestion that a purely civilian approach be tried using some form of aid and without military involvement to help make reparation for the harm that we have caused.

It is obvious that this is different than post WWII. But unless you believe that Dave is wrong about our owing something to the people we have attacked largely without cause, what, short of military activity do you propose that we do?

hvd April 15, 2009 - 1:23pm

... you will notice that Mahmoud fought the Taliban hard before "friendly fire" killed most of his family. The Northern alliance was barely holding their ground against them before the US intervention.

Abandoning the country to the Taliban would be yet another betrayal. And if you don't have a military presence there this will be the ultimate outcome. No amount of civilian assistance would cover that up.

quax April 15, 2009 - 2:16pm

That would indeed be a betrayal. But isn't that betrayal a little less odious than actually killing his family. After all they did have the capacity to fight the Taliban and chose to do so and survived until we came along. Again it seems unlikely to me that our military can be reorganized to effectively fight this "war." Certainly it does not appear at all likely in the next 5 or so years. The consequence is that we will go on killing "Mahmouds' family". What then is to be done?

hvd April 15, 2009 - 2:37pm

... would greatly reduce the chances of the kind of "accident" that killed Mahmoud's family.

Currently it is deliberate policy to hit targets from afar and to shrug off the "collateral damage". This has to stop. It is politically expedient to just use imprecise air force because the US public never gets a look at the actual pain inflicted and no US soldiers can get hurt in the process. It is exactly the kind of war the US would continue maybe even step up if all ground troops were to be removed from Afghanistan.

quax April 15, 2009 - 6:05pm

What makes you think we would give up our extreme use of air power? In how many wars will we see its negative "collateral consequences," from the standpoints of both bombee and bomber, before we can give it up? Would the Air Force tolerate this loss of place?

hvd April 15, 2009 - 6:35pm

...HRW report on civilian casualties due to airstrikes in Afghanistan. The contributing factors are to a very, very large extent about not having enough people on the ground. These aren't random or constant events - there are systemic causes that can be addressed and attempts are ongoing right now to do so. I don't expect the absolute numbers to decline to any appreciable degree in the near future, given that this fighting season is likely to be quite intense, but the number of civilian casualties per "unit of conflict" [for lack of a better term] has declined over the course of the war.

“The absence of any US-Iran bilateral channel...may have the perverse effect of reinforcing Iranian interest in progressing in the nuclear realm so that the US will be forced to take it seriously and engage it directly." ~ Richard Haass

JustPlainDave April 15, 2009 - 9:04pm

If you pull out your ground troops the likelihood for excessive American air force use increases. As long as you have soldiers on the ground in Afghanistan there is a less invasive and more targeted venue for force application.

Essentially I think the simplified formula goes like this:

More American troops in Afghanistan = More US casualties but less Afghan civilians killed

Less or no American troops in Afghanistan = Less/no US casualties, more reliance on air force, hence more Afghan civilians killed

quax April 15, 2009 - 9:37pm

Iraq air raids hit mostly women and children

Report urges review of military strategy when targeting urban areas

By Kim Sengupta, Defence correspondent

Growing anger over civilian casualties caused by air raids in another front of the “war on terror”, Afghanistan, has led to the US, UK and their Nato partners reviewing their policy of using warplanes. Hamid Karzai, the Afghan President, recently said this had become the most contentious issue between him and Western powers.

From 2004 to 2007, the overall tonnage of munition dropped from planes in the Afghan conflict rose from 163 tonnes a year to 1,956 tonnes, an increase of 1,100 per cent. Since 2001 the US air force has dropped 14,049 tonnes of bombs in Afghanistan and 18,858 in Iraq

Tina April 15, 2009 - 10:44pm

Important to note that the stats are drawn from the cases where they have sex and age data, which represent a relatively small minority of the fatalities for most causes of death. For example, for air attacks they were able to identify sex for 564 fatalities and age for 703 fatalities, out of a total of 2,363. If there's any bias in the reporting those percentages could shift somewhat - worth noting that the authors of the study highlight it, if the piece above does not. [As a contextual thought, I would point out that if civilian deaths due to aerial attack are collateral or accidents, the demographic profile should look a lot like the civilian population as a whole - that it diverges to the extent that it does indicates that there is some care being taken in targeting.]

Study available here [pdf].

“The absence of any US-Iran bilateral channel...may have the perverse effect of reinforcing Iranian interest in progressing in the nuclear realm so that the US will be forced to take it seriously and engage it directly." ~ Richard Haass

JustPlainDave April 15, 2009 - 11:21pm

Forgive me for saying this, but this whole complex of Belgian models and other folks from around Asia sounds like the platform for a promising "humor in dark places" kind of black comedy. Compelling characters. Wondering how it plays out. i can't believe i haven't seen a similar drama about a rental/road house kind of place like this. (and of course in just this one post it cuts right to the middle of what war is all about-ethnic conflict and what we soothingly euthanize as "collateral damage").

Note to justplaindave: until someone coughs up what the rich white guys are doing with all the opium money, a bunch of fake nonsense will continue to take place and make it impossible for anyone to live peaceably around there. It seems like it's all about deliberately blinding ourselves to what the West really does at this level.

--
Hongpong.com

HongPong April 15, 2009 - 7:45pm

... the realities of this multi-faceted world. Just a total bandwidth dominance of US produced content. I think this is a real problem. Just due to SP's account did this Afghan war become a lot more real for many people who hang out on this site.

These stories need to be told and they should also be fictionalized on TV and in movies to reach a wider audience - alas it ain't happening with a naval gazing Hollywood.

quax April 15, 2009 - 9:47pm

they only gaze at navels because navels are half way between the breastesses and paradise on earth.
hollywood reflects crass instincts because crass instincts sell.
whether it's ego, youth, beauty, health or sex. hollywood packages it for you in one easy technicolor swallow.
(I'm currently touristing in Hollywood, where they answer the hotel phone, "What is your wish today?" it's kinda creepy, but I'm tempted to make one, but the ocean is calling)

dk April 16, 2009 - 9:42am

Write this down on a visible body part for frequent reference: "International events are not well explained by focusing exclusively on white guys". As penance ;), read [or re-read] as I have been Rashid's Taliban and contemplate how exquisitely Pakistan (as an example of the agency of non-white guys, rich or otherwise) absolutely fucked their Afghanistan policy over an extended period and sowed the vast majority of the seeds for their current instability. Well worth the reflection. My view, it's difficult enough understanding the complexities without wasting time going snark hunting. Snarks are entertaining but don't ultimately contribute much to one's understanding - take it from one who's been there and pissed time down those holes.

“The absence of any US-Iran bilateral channel...may have the perverse effect of reinforcing Iranian interest in progressing in the nuclear realm so that the US will be forced to take it seriously and engage it directly." ~ Richard Haass

JustPlainDave April 16, 2009 - 10:06am

eom

quax April 16, 2009 - 11:09am

here in germany with an iraqi at a bar. it didnt go as well, he was screaming at me why did you murder my family, my children, etc. i have never felt so ashamed of my country in my life. as a 8 year veteran i find this thing extremely difficult to take. rethugs have destroyed the moral standing of our nation, really destroyed it, its sickening.

if you get to denmark sean, let me know, id love to meet up with you. im about 4 hours from the border of denmark, maybe could meet up somewhere in one of the smaller towns nearer germany. or come visit hannover for a few days... i got an air mattress....

johnfire April 16, 2009 - 12:54am

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