Depressed


Sometimes I get into these moods where blogging seems like a pointless exercise. I'm deep in the middle of one right now. Why?

Well, I'm disgusted with the Senate Democrats for doing nothing about the torture bill. Yeah, I know this is so last week's news, but it's only now that I've actually been able to write anything about it. I just don't get it. The Democrats would stand up for Social Security becuase it is a part of our core values, right? In the meantime everyone said, especially in the aftermath of the election, that defending social security was a loser for the Democrats, but they fought and the won.

And now, with the torture bill, they did nothing. All we heard we arguments why it was politically damaging to argue against the McCain compromise, or whatever. It really doesn't get any more craven than that. I don't care what anyone says, or how they justify varying levels of torture. Torture is torture and what the Senate did is a betrayal of our fundamental human values. So, I'm depressed and I'll be heading back to my history books in search for some solace out in the nothingness of Central Asia.

Actually I'm more saddened than anything else and I don't have much to say, other than that. Maybe this will pass later today or tomorrow or whenever. But that's where I am; no sense denying it.


Sean-Paul Kelley September 26, 2006 - 2:46pm
( categories: Liberties )

Speaking the truth is never a pointless exercise, it is a noble and ethical act even when it seems futile to do so...S


"I beseech you in the bowels of christ think it possible you may be mistaken."

Scott M September 26, 2006 - 3:16pm

SP, I highly recommend Congressman John Lewis's autobiography, Walking with the Wind. It is the best anecdote I've found when I'm in the mood you've just described.

These are dark days, but just like Lewis's experiences with the civil rights movement in the 60's -- this is a lifelong commitment, and change is slow, but if you take the long view you can see the progress.

Seriously: please read the book. It really helps.

It's the old buddhist adage of "chop wood, carry water." Put one foot in front of the other and do what needs to be done...and if you're doing the right things, results do come, even if you don't see them.

When it's dark and you're lost, go back to "chop wood, carry water." It will get you through.

Shaula Evans September 26, 2006 - 8:33pm

On two occasions, the Dems in the Senate have let the GOP completely settle the issue. First, it was the Harriet Miers' nomination to SCOTUS. Now, it is the torture bill. This is troubling, as it shows they are quite content with their status as a snipping-at-the-heels opposition party.

http://editcopy.blogspot.com

chrisz September 26, 2006 - 3:24pm

...the Queen asked Faraday of what use such studies were, to which he is said to have replied, "Madam, of what use is a baby?"

Escher Sketch September 26, 2006 - 3:40pm

everyone, including, or especially the Congress, as i see it. we've known about the illegality of torture for years, we knew about everything sooner than the general public...here is the rub: the Congress reacts

only to the general public, which is why some things are happening now...things are becoming more mainstream understood...

we can NEVER expect the Congress as a body

to act because it's the right thing to do. sadly.

the only way they can know is if we write or vote them out.

that, or as Paul Craig Roberts surmises, they are being blackmailed

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2006: Make war irrelevant

bernadene September 26, 2006 - 4:07pm

I like McCain. But when he stood up and said, "Don't forget they attacked us first," in context to the question of the Iraq war, I wanted to reach through the TV screen and hit him right between the eyes.

I did inhale.

Don September 26, 2006 - 4:46pm

...Wellstone, who seemed to be glad to vote for the right over the concensus.

Hang in there, SP. Six more weeks and control of the house could change the tenor of this debate.

Ten people who speak make more noise than ten thousand who are silent. --Napoleon Bonaparte

Seen and Heard September 26, 2006 - 4:47pm

Definitely not. Absolutely not. At least, not blogs like this one. There's so much here that is not picked up anywhere else. So much more explained in a reasonable manner than just about any other news source (including most other blogs). Certainly more than the news on TV or in the paper.

Let me tell you how blogs have effected my life over the last 3.5 years:

At the beginning of 2003, I was completely non-engaged in politics, world affairs, or any ideas outside of school, games, and general entertainment. My attitude toward the Iraq War was "Well, we have to test out our shiny toys somewhere--why not in Iraq?" Seriously, that's what I said. Then I happened upon Orcinus and read Dave Neiwert's "Rush, Newspeak, and Fascism." I immediately started reading more political blogs (predominantly on the liberal side of the web) and began my "journey."

Someone more religious than me might call this an "awakening" or talk of being "reborn." To me, the process has been one of evolution. I started out reading about 6-10 blogs/day and became almost obsessed with the issues on them. Over time, I discovered new blogs and came to realize that some of the ones I was currently reading were toxic (example: I think Atrios is lethal to mental health :) ). I've switched around and dropped/added blogs to my daily reading and now have arrived at a pretty healthy arrangement in the last 6 months or so: Orcinus, DailyHowler, Agonist, JuanCole, Billmon, WorldChanging, and Feministe (and BOPNews if it ever comes back up).

The amount of information that I've gleaned from these sites and others over time has been invaluable. I have gained access to information and opinions that I would have NEVER been exposed to otherwise--book recommendations, links to official studies and reports, and just the general knowledge displayed in each post. Sure, some of it is erroneous or biased, but, from reading blogs and the comments attached to them, I've developed a crude mental filter for discerning poor arguments and have learned efficient ways to confirm information.

So... I guess the point I'm making here is that blogs might not have much of an effect on the federal level--it's too insulated right now--but they can have a huge effect at the individual level. Blogs have challenged and changed my conceptions of how the world looks and works. I suspect that reading the posts here and elsewhere makes me a bit more depressed and pessimistic than I would otherwise be, but I prefer that to being almost completely in the dark about the way things are going around the world. Better to see the brick wall and be braced for the collision than to wonder what the heck we just hit and grope around in the dark for an explanation.

Thank you for blogging.

Bolo September 26, 2006 - 5:02pm

Nice to read Bolo. I don't know what'll happen with BOP, if anything. However in the meantime you can read me, Shaula Evans and Hale Stewart here (and occasionally Stirling here) and Stirling at TPM Cafe. Ellen Dana Nagler has a blog called "The Broad View" which you can find here.

Ian Welsh September 26, 2006 - 5:34pm

I was wondering where Stirling had gone--looks like I'll make TPM Cafe a regular stop now. I'll check out "The Broad View" as well. And of course, I'll keep reading everyone here at The Agonist.

Bolo September 26, 2006 - 5:59pm

...for the kind words, Bolo.

Shaula Evans September 26, 2006 - 8:29pm

Go here, scroll down, click on Obermann and swallow with a drink of water.

I did inhale.

Don September 26, 2006 - 5:08pm

watch this movie.

trailer here: http://youtube.com/watch?v=m2ZxvMsBv8c

What would a violent 1880's Austalian Western have in common with what's happening here today? We make the same mistakes over and over again.

I did inhale.

Don September 26, 2006 - 5:42pm

There are 3 and they are all on the same site further down.

SP, you know the information, influence and inspiration Agonist has given many, myself included. Giving up is never a solution when the end result means you lose all you have. Too many have sacrificed too much before us for the same causes we hold dear to ever give up.

It will pass, and you will be back refreshed and ready to kick some ass.

Carib

Caribdude September 26, 2006 - 7:15pm

that the national Dem establishment would divest itself of the DLC and many of the 'consultants' that, from my far-removed stand-point, appear to be telling our pols that they can't beat the Repubs, no matter what they do, no matter how hard they try.

But then I see things like the Clinton/Wallace interview, and Olbermann (Yeeee-OW!!), and they show me that the night has stars.

keep the fires burning, and (slap me hard if you want...) ask your wife if she feels like she's "back in the USSR" (apologies to the Beatles)...gads, but I'm starting to feel like I'm there, only I understand the language now.....

-5.75,-4.05 "The invisible hand of Adam Smith seems to offer an extended middle finger to an awful lot of people"---George Carlin

justadood September 26, 2006 - 5:49pm

Sean-Paul, read this story from Bowers. He's hardly a Polyanna, yet he's almost giddy in this post about Colorado, and the changes that have been wrought in the span of 4 years:

http://www.mydd.com/story/2006/9/26/17038/5320

It's both about hopeful trendlines, and the part that blogging plays in it. Blogging is neither pointless nor hopeless.

You know, I read Ralph Reed's "Active Faith" (I was curious). Bit of a whitewash in some places (all the key ones), and deeply ironic to read as things started to fall apart for him, but I would highly recommend anyone trying to take part in the VLWC read it. It's about persistence. Start local, start small, work at it, be patient, keep with it. You look at how freakin hard the VRWC has to work to keep things from going off the rails, and I can't help but be hopeful that we can turn things around faster than they did.

dlmcelroy0 September 26, 2006 - 7:10pm

... politically aware American. This is how German democrats must have felt in the 30s when the Weimar republic slipped away. For me it became unbearable to live in the US and I am not even American. I relocated to Canada - being here makes it much easier to stay sane. Living in NC I could not stand to watch the Bush Cheney stickers on cars any longer. But sadly Canada is not really an option for an American. You will suffer with your country wherever you go - such is the nature of true patriotism and love of one's country. Besides although times are bad the fight is not over - the world depends on good Americans fighting to pull their country back from the abyss.

quax September 26, 2006 - 8:00pm

http://sabbah.biz/mt/archives/2006/09/27/iraq-for-sale-the-war-profiteers/
It is worth a watch!

repressive governments mix administrative clumsiness & inefficiency with authoritarian tendencies.

kimmy September 26, 2006 - 8:09pm

I was much like Bolo, only my epiphany about political responsibility came earlier, it came on 9/11. Having been a block away from the WTC when the first plane hit, I had a lot of jitters.

What I took away from the experience, apart from being traumatized, was a desire on an intellectual level to figure out why it happened.

I went through a period of therapy for post traumatic stress syndrome. I was also depressed. My therapist said part of my problem was that I was trying to carry the entire worries of the world on my shoulders and that was neither realistic nor my job.

That was helpful up to a point but I still needed to find an intellectual level understanding of things. I subscribe to the The Nation and TNR, publications which I thought would help me focus my thoughts. I found both not my cup of tea for different reasons.

Your blog, on the other hand, has been amazingly therapeutic to me and I am sure a lot of other folks. I have checked out other "progressive" blogs but this one has the reality based balance of liberalism and pragmatism that makes the most sense to me. You have also built a community SPK, something you should be proud of.

You can't carry the world on your shoulders either. Doing your best and soldiering on promoting your ethical standards is a whole lot more than what most people are doing. If we don't toss out the scoundrels this election cycle we can always redouble our for the next.

I am bummed about the Dems reaction to the McCain compromise as well. The glimmer of hope that may come from that is that, craven as the Dems may have been, if they end up with a majority in either or both houses, the damage can be undone.

Mark September 26, 2006 - 9:03pm

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