Lessons Learned on the Loading Dock


Martin Luther King brought his campaign for civil rights to Chicago in 1965, giving my father yet another excuse to rail on and on about Negroes not knowing their place. When he was at home he was restricted to the term “Negro” – our mother saw to that – but to the embarrassment of everyone in our family he was allowed to let loose whenever his own parents held a family party with his many brothers and sisters.

We kids would sit quietly in their living room, while in the kitchen the aunts and uncles, plus Grandpa and Grandma and our Dad, would tell the latest jokes about the "coons" or "spades" they met showing off their Cadillacs, or lazing around the streets. There was a decided overtone of superiority to these conversations; it seemed to make my Dad’s family feel much better to talk about the ignorant and indolent blacks they would come across from time to time. But there was also an undercurrent of fear; the blacks were beginning to move into yet another neighborhood, they would say, branching out like a menace to all the nice communities where the sons of white immigrants from Europe made their living as tradesmen, steelworkers, or in other manual labor.

As teenagers we were embarrassed by all this racist talk, mostly because our mother made it clear we were never, ever to use such language ourselves, but also because the suburban high school we attended was intent on educating our baby boomer generation with a higher level of tolerance. This was an easy thing to do because there were no blacks in our high school, not at least until my junior year, which was the first time I ever met a black person.

The Civil Rights Act was passed in 1964, and riots were beginning to spread across the South and up into northern cities like Chicago. We couldn’t but be aware of these convulsions; they were on the television every night, and my father detested Martin Luther King almost as much as he did the Kennedy’s or Lyndon Johnson. The fear of your neighborhood changing color was now being compounded by the greater fear of physical violence.

Teenagers notice these bigger social developments, but the microcosmic world of high school is highly insular, and we spent more of our time on dating and homework and music – especially music. This was the time of the rise of the Beatles, a social force in their own right, but one that bridged the black and white cultures of the U.S. The Beatles were purposeful borrowers of musical trends emerging from inner city ghettos, and in that sense were oddly more in tune with American racial circumstances than most white kids.

My older sister had every Beatles fan magazine she could get her hands on, and I recall thumbing through one of these worshipful publications and noticing an interview with the band members themselves. The reporter asked the Beatles what they thought of the troubled racial situation in the U.S., what with all the riots taking place, and what they thought could be a solution to these problems. One of the Beatles – I think it was Ringo Starr – replied that he thought the only answer was for everyone to have chocolate children.

I was astounded by this insight. It was not only so patently true, it was the type of thinking that these days we would call completely “outside the box.” An idea like this would not occur to any Americans I knew – not in school, or at church, and certainly not in my family. Who could imagine a white person and a black person marrying and having a chocolate child? And yet if we all did that, eventually racial differences would disappear. It was brilliant.

In 1964 I filed this idea away as something that Americans far, far into the future could perhaps make a reality. At that moment, the interaction of blacks with whites in a big city like Chicago was almost non-existent, and whites were beginning to pour out of the inner cities to avoid associating with blacks. Eventually my grandparents on both sides of the family lost their homes to white flight. They watched the values of their homes on the Southside fall more than 50% as blacks began moving in and their neighbors moved out, and eventually they succumbed as well, with great bitterness as a result. My grandfather on my mother’s side had always been a genteel person with a decent white-collar job and no unkind word for anyone. Quite to our surprise, once he was forced to move to the suburbs he developed a racist streak every bit as virulent as my other grandfather.

Our Dad provided us a surprise of a different nature in his later years. He kept his job at a Southside steel mill until retirement, and long after the plant had become completely integrated. We would hear creeping into his conversation stories about his co-workers who were black, who were three-dimensional humans with names, and who were friends even. I remember him coming home one day from work and telling us, with great wonderment as if he had made an anthropological discovery, that if black people stayed in the sun too long they would develop a sunburn.

Dad suffered two hernias working on the loading dock, and the company allowed a very limited time for someone to recover from surgery, so it made a big difference to him when his co-workers covered for him on the job for weeks while he took it easy. He discovered blacks were anything but lazy, and it seemed to liberate him when his father died. No one had to sit around the kitchen table anymore competing over who could tell the most racist joke.

In the 80s my parents moved to one of those planned retirement communities springing up in the South. In talking to my Dad on the phone, he was a very different person from the father I knew as a child. I was taken aback one day when he complained to me about some of the white guys in the community who were “really racist.” It was as if they were insulting the friends he left behind at the steel mill. It was then that I began to wonder what sort of person he would have been if his father hadn’t taught him racism, and what sort of person I would have been if my mother hadn’t taught me in a very different way.

If my Dad had kept his family home on the Southside, and if he had lived a few years longer, his state senator in Springfield would have been Barack Obama. What would he have thought of that? I know my wife would have told him to have some pride in his state senator. She met Barack Obama in the mid-90s when he gave a speech at our local chapter of the League of Women Voters. She came home and told me “that man will be President of the United States someday!”

Just as in 1964, I filed that information away to be acted upon by Americans far, far into the future. In our lifetime, a black man would never be President of the United States – I was sure of that. So were we all, except those who met Barack Obama. He had a way back then of making people believe in unlimited, even unthinkable futures. And why couldn’t that future include an African-American as President – maybe even Barack Obama, and maybe even now rather than later? From this sort of thinking sprang up a cadre of people – some important, many unknown – who began working to promote Barack Obama to the U.S. Senate, and then ultimately to campaign for the presidency itself.

Barack Obama was a chocolate child, the sort of white-black link that Ringo Starr prophesied. The type of person who can move easily within and between both cultures. Except the emphasis here is on the verb “was” – Barack Obama is no longer a chocolate child. He has long since adopted his black heritage as his own, without disowning his white roots or upbringing, but always asserting the essential aspect of his character – both how others see him, and how he wishes to be seen.

He wishes to be seen as a man of character, a person of intellect and solid reasoning, someone of prudential judgment, someone who has associated all his life with those struggling with poverty, discrimination, and lack of opportunity. And oh yes, he is an African-American who has been shaped by the black experience in America.

I think – and I don’t believe this is a fantasy – that my father would look at Barack Obama the way Barack Obama wishes to be perceived. I suspect my father would see in him a man who would step up and do the work of others when it was needed, a three-dimensional character who put to rest the stereotypes that whites maintain about blacks. I suspect my father would see in Barack Obama exactly the sort of person he had come to know and respect on the loading dock.

Abraham Lincoln said: "I don't like that man. I must get to know him better. " That statement says more about Christian charity than a thousand sermons from a thousand preachers across America. It is a truth my father discovered, even if by happenstance, while working in a steel mill. It is a sentiment that motivates Barack Obama’s approach to politics just as much as it informs his approach to life. It is, ultimately, the source of hope for America. More than anything, it is what this election has been about, and it is the bedrock upon which a more promising future for this country can be made.


Numerian November 5, 2008 - 1:52am

I began an essay called "A Nation Of Tans." Didn't know that Ringo beat me to it.

It is a simple idea really. Race does not exist. It makes no more sense to categorize people by the color of their skin than by the color of their eyes. It is just not a meaningful distinction.

The best day will come not when we elect an African American President, but when no one mentiions it.

The last racist taboo is inter-marriage. Even some people who think that they are not racist are uncomfortable with the idea. Actually, it is perfectly normal.

jwp November 5, 2008 - 8:04am

At least in urban areas. Seeing mixed couples with their children is becoming more common and doesn't seem to bring out concern in others.

Television and movies play an important role here. Dennis Haysbert, who plays President Palmer on 24, said two weeks ago that his role contributed to the rise and acceptance of Barack Obama, in part because his audience was overwhelmingly white male and Republican. I think he has a point, though he had predecessors like Morgan Freeman who deserve acknowledgment, not to mention the writers and producers who decided to show an African-American in the highest office in the land. At first it started out quirky, ironic, and humorous, but gradually the audience doesn't seem to notice or mind these black men in the Oval Office. Acculturation allows the concept to become natural.

The same can be said for interracial relationships, which in Hollywood apparently dates back to the sixties and the famous kiss between Kirk and Uhuru on the original Star Trek (the first such kiss in television - I don't know about the movies).

What's interesting about this election is not that racism was vanquished, or even that white people voted for a black candidate. Obama did get a greater percentage of white votes than Kerry, so that certainly says something about the receding racial barrier in politics. But there were hundreds of rural, white counties throughout the South that voted overwhelmingly for McCain, usually giving him greater than 60% of the vote. The same was true in rural areas in Pennsylvania and Ohio. In those two states, there were enough urban and suburban votes to offset the rural vote, but in the South there were not enough black votes to do so. When rural whites vote for the black candidate, then we can say some real progress has been made.

Finally, race may have been secondary to age in deciding this election. Two-thirds of the voters under age 30 voted for Obama - an historic high in this age category which usually trails very close to all other age groups. This divergence so clearly in favor of one candidate and one party, and backed up by a large turnout, decided this election and should be a source of grave concern for the Republicans. It really does seem to show that this group is far less concerned about race or inter-racial relationships.

Numerian November 5, 2008 - 9:05am

Damned fine essay.

Lex November 5, 2008 - 9:19am

This is one election that got very personal for a lot of people.

Numerian November 5, 2008 - 9:24am

There really is something beautiful in seeing people changing--someone letting go of their chains and freeing themselves of their lifelong fears.
We took such a major step last night. Even if Obama proves to be more wall street than main street, we elected an African-american! When I saw the next first family standing on the stage in Chicago last night tears welled up in my eyes. America was willing to affirm its founding creed!
Now I only hope the rest of the world will be willing to give us another chance.

young pilgrim November 5, 2008 - 9:37am

Today, I want to move forward, onward and ever onward, to the place I've been hoping and praying for ever since my childhood in Texas, living in the environment of the Jim Crow laws.
Can't the pejoratives in the second paragraph be removed and a one-word representation of them be substituted? These words sting and hurt even a person like me who was not the target, but was also a child in a family in which relatives spoke those words. I, too, grew up in a family in which many members had great bigotry. I wanted with all my heart to grow out of it and finally, by knowing my children's friends and their parents, was I able to wash my soul.
I want to forget my pain and embarrassment of having to hear friends and relatives assault God's children with such language. I want the words to be buried forever in the ash-heap of history. For God's sake, for all our sakes, can't something else be placed in that paragraph? Today is not the day, nor is tomorrow, nor the next day, for those words ever to be brought back to life.
I can't explain or justify that reading about "ignorant or indolent blacks they would come across from time to time" makes me wish that it were also mentioned that the family ignored the fact that ignorant or indolent whites also existed but went unnoticed or commented upon.
I'm too sensitive, I guess, but I still have burned in my memory the looks of pain and despair, the hunched shoulders, the shuffling walk, the broken-down shoes and damaged feet of people who were and are as much a part of God's beautiful creations as those of us who are not of color.

"All I know is just what I read in the newspapers." - Will Rogers

readr satx November 5, 2008 - 9:51am

We just pretended not to hear them, but I learned over time that was a mistake and if they weren't faced head on they wouldn't really go away. I'm sorry if they hurt, but I struggled to convey in writing what it was really like to live in such a family if I just elided over the shameful words that fundamentally characterized racism among whites.

To me, facing up to these things is what makes the Obama victory so precious.

Numerian November 5, 2008 - 10:29am

An idea like this would not occur to any Americans I knew – not in school, or at church, and certainly not in my family. Who could imagine a white person and a black person marrying and having a chocolate child?

It occurred to my suburban Chicago parents who married in 1952. My mother's father was a Barbadian who was an officer in the British Navy and my mother's mother was a Canadian descendant of Winston Churchill. They married in 1900 and had 10 children - the oldest of which was my grandfather. In 1920 they moved to a religious community/township northeast of Chicago (Zion, Illinois). Some of my grandfather's siblings married white spouses, others married black spouses. Everyone settled in different parts of the country and in some cases, in other countries.

My grandfather married a mixed-race woman from Kentucky - her father was one of the few black property owners in Kentucky. He was college educated and was a strict minister. My grandparents settled, also in Zion and had two children - the oldest was my mother. My mother grew up considering herself white, her brother grew up identifying as black. They both married white spouses.

My mother and father eloped in the fall of 1952. They tried to get married in Illinois but could not due to their racial differences. They crossed the border into Indiana and by showing a picture of one of my mother's red-headed aunts, were able to persuade an Indiana minister to marry them. They've been married for 57 years and they had five children. I'm the youngest. They moved to Long Island (N.Y.), Fox Lake (Illinois), Grand Rapids (Michigan) before settling in Houston.

I was raised in a white environment, white neighborhoods and never considered myself anything else. Until I was in my mid-20s. You see, my mother never told me about my mixed-race background. She thought it would be less confusing to me if I identified with only one race. She didn't want me to see racism. She didn't want for any of us kids to have problems. As my father is Irish-German - most of us kids look mostly white. My mother actually told me I was Hawaiian - just in case anyone asked.

So - it wasn't until my mid to late 20's that I learned the truth. I say learned - but maybe I should use the word acknowledged. For years people were asking me what color I was. I had been called "dirty cotton" by old black men. I had been accosted by white and black girls in my Jr. High, demanding to know what I was (I would answer "checkered" without even knowing how truthful that really was). I never really "KNEW" what I was, but somewhere I must have had an idea.

So - in my late 20's I went to a family reunion - back to Chicago - back to the family. With 10 children all having married different colored spouses and had children, and grandchildren, etc. - the reunion was HUGE and definitely multi-colored. But we all looked the same - we were all the same family.

I'm not sure I have a point here. I feel a kinship with Obama - not only because he's mixed-race, not only because he was born in Hawaii - the place my mother CLAIMED we were from (not a SPECK of truth in that), but also because he's only a few years older than me (I was born in 1964).

I hear other people talk about it as if it's just beginning - mixed race couples are accepted now. Look how far we've come. Change is coming. Etc.

But for my family, that change happened in 1900 when a white female Churchill descendant married a black man from Barbados.

And I find it ironic that they found peace (by all accounts their life was a happy one) in the religiously founded township of Zion Illinois.

"The stars at night, are big and bright..."

Houstonia November 5, 2008 - 12:07pm

Do you find people still care? It'd be nice to know that you don't get people demanding to know what race you are.

Numerian November 5, 2008 - 1:47pm

I've been asked as recently as THIS YEAR, "are you black or white?" or "Are you mixed?"

Oops - I see I made a mistake in my original posting. It was my great-grandmother and father (on my mother's father's side) who were Canadian and Barbadian. It was my grand-parents (on my mother's side) who were both mixed-race and married. I realize that not everyone is being unkind - they are just curious - like me. Some of the people who ask are mixed-race themselves.

However, I recently broke down in tears while talking race with a friend of mine. I said, "you have no idea what it's like to always feel different." I was describing to her how I felt when I visited Miami - how I felt that at long last, people were not looking at me. When we are in a group, my black friend jokingly says, "you're not black - you were raised white" and he chuckles. But white people have always looked at me twice - as if they were not QUITE sure what I am, but I'm definitely not one of them. Which makes it hard, because I've always considered myself white. Everyone thinks I'm half something (latino, black, cajun, middle-eastern), but no one ever thinks of me as anything WHOLE. I don't know if that makes sense.

My sisters are a different matter because they are all fairer than me - one blonde, one red-head, and one with beautiful waist-length dark brown hair (people think SHE is native-american). My brother, with his fair skin, red afro and grey eyes - has had some of the same problems as me - though I think not as much.

So, there you have it. Don't get me wrong - I don't see racism every where I look. I don't think people are avoiding me. It's more like I'm put under a microscope. Now - ROMANTICALLY - I think race HAS been an issue. It's amazing that a man will date (or sleep with) a woman with questionable lineage - but will he actually have children with her? Or marry her? Or take her home to meet his family? A very different story. I've been called "too bohemian" and one man who I was desperately (and secretly) in love with said one night when I was explaining my lineage, "gee... I thought you were black." I looked at him and saw his discomfort and realized that race had been the obstacle to us ever becoming romantic.
"The stars at night, are big and bright..."

Houstonia November 5, 2008 - 5:02pm

She said today that she felt as if she was able for the first time to set down a piece of luggage she wasn't aware she was carrying. It's hard to imagine that just because Obama is elected president people will stop asking you about your racial makeup, but I'm hoping it will increasingly be curiosity that motivates these questions, not fear or avoidance.

Numerian November 5, 2008 - 5:24pm

Coincidentally here, I grew up on the South side of Chicago as well. Morgan Park.

jtruett November 5, 2008 - 12:47pm

Shows up in science fiction starting in the 1960's and 1970's.

Stirling Newberry November 5, 2008 - 2:19pm

My dad isn't well enough to understand what just happened. I really don't know what he would say about a Black president. He always told me that there are people in this world who have it bad. His stories about being a Hispanic youth in East St. Louis are amazing. This was during the time of Louis Armstrong's music coming on and Jackie Gleason's domination of the local pool halls; when the Jim Crow era South held sway over that city.

My Dad had a paper box on the best corner in town. One of his stories involves the rules about Negroes enforced by the local shopkeeper's cadre. African Americans who ignored the signs posted to keep them off the sidewalk and dared to walk past those shops were beaten with baseball bats by the shopkeepers and their minions. Dad said that he saw one black man beaten to within an inch of his life. He told me that, after that, he never felt like his life was that hard; "not so hard as some people have it".

I think my Dad would probably feel the way I do about this election and today I am proud to be an American. I've not always felt that way in the past but Obama and McCain and the American people together made me proud last night.

"You have no respect for excessive authority or obsolete traditions. You're dangerous and depraved, and you ought to be taken outside and shot!" - Joseph Heller

Joaquin November 5, 2008 - 3:39pm

Why all his speeches weren't this welcoming, eloquent, inclusive I will never understand. It was sad to see the reaction of the crowd to his warm words about Obama. It was a testimony to months of "inciting the base", which only produced anger and fear.

Numerian November 5, 2008 - 4:54pm

It makes me wonder if his political strategists reined him in such that he could not be the John McCain who would have a chance of winning the election. Certainly he showed it last night. Perhaps the Rovian style of politics is becoming an anachronism; that would be nice.

"You have no respect for excessive authority or obsolete traditions. You're dangerous and depraved, and you ought to be taken outside and shot!" - Joseph Heller

Joaquin November 5, 2008 - 5:31pm

could have had a real chance of winning, he should have followed his own instincts than that of Rove and his handlers. He seem to forget they worked for him instead of the other way around.

Tina November 5, 2008 - 6:31pm

at peace last night. Relieved that it was finally over. Relieved that he could finally be himself. There was no Rovian stamp on his gracious speech. I wish him well.


Tolerating prostitution is tolerating abuse and torture of women and children.

adrena November 5, 2008 - 8:09pm

.. was incapable of what you suggest would've improved his chances, me thinks. Defeat brought about his 'graciousness', not character. I think no better of him for having made that speech. It seemed to me merely self-serving like the rest of him. If that seems harsh, well, so be it, I guess. I think he earned it.

Not nearly ready to make nice.

ww November 6, 2008 - 6:25am

that but I think others would have gravitated towards him if he hadn't turned into the grouchy old fart who picked or let others pick his VP. I still appreciate his speech and hopefully it calmed down some of the nutmeats, well the one with consciences any way. That said I am totally enjoying the implosion of the GOP and the campaign infighting. It has been a long time coming and I am savoring it. :)

Tina November 6, 2008 - 6:47am

What does anyone suppose that fat bastard is going to be up to for the next couple of years? Do neocons hibernate? Lay eggs that will hatch in about two years?

"Lord! What Fools these Mortals be!"

Doug Richardson November 6, 2008 - 1:13pm

to regenerate :)

Tina November 6, 2008 - 1:26pm

Though I wouldn't want to see either of them regenerate.

Numerian November 6, 2008 - 2:17pm

I remember as a child asking my mom if whites and blacks had a child would they be zebra like. The look on her face was a kodak moment. I also remember feeling badly for kids from mixed marriages, they were treated so badly by other kids, their parents and teachers. I didn't understand it then and still don't but remember going out of my way to befriend people who were thought of differently. My life is much richer for it.

Tina November 5, 2008 - 5:42pm

I find your remarks concerning your father and grandfather to be telling and feel that they tend to support a thesis that racism in America is basically an economic phenomenon. Elites vilify the other in order to justify their subjugation, while the common man vilifies them in order to establish his own superiority (rather, so as not to be himself equated with the others' social standing [which in America is almost wholy tied to economic status]).

DBass November 6, 2008 - 4:48am

There must also be a distinction between prejudice and racism. Prejudice can be largely an economic phenomenon between people of the same race; Protestants fearing Catholic immigrants from Ireland, for example. But here too you have the element of religion compounding the economic fears.

With racism it is pure racial distinctions that motivate the fear, which can be white superiority over Hispanics, or superiority over blacks who started out in this country in the worst economic condition imaginable.

Numerian November 6, 2008 - 5:45am

Racism is a kind of wedge that elites exploit when it serves them. The wedge seeks segmentation to exploit the desperation of one group and give them hope at the expense of the other. The segmentation does not matter if it is race, religion, tribal or whatever. Dark skin and white skin is an obvious kind of segmentation.

In the early days of U.S. history laws were passed that forbade intermarriage of whites and blacks while other new laws allowed poor whites to own property but not blacks; there is the segmentation and the hope at the expense of the others; those laws say, "you, poor whites, you are better than the blacks".

Why do it? What is the motivation? The common intermarriage and social combination of whites and blacks was a threat to the institution of slavery. Look at the history of the Creoles.

"You have no respect for excessive authority or obsolete traditions. You're dangerous and depraved, and you ought to be taken outside and shot!" - Joseph Heller

Joaquin November 6, 2008 - 10:17am

Even as late as the 1950s it was illegal for blacks to own real estate in cities like Chicago, or if it wasn't outright illegal, it was made virtually impossible except for restricted areas that were black ghettos. This is one reason blacks amassed what wealth they had in things like Cadillacs. Whites, of course, interpreted this as "showing off" and worthy of ridicule.

Numerian November 6, 2008 - 10:23am

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