Q: My name is Jessica, and I've decided that within the next month to a year that I will kill myself. I'm waiting because I decided that I shouldn't be a burden, even in death, so I'm going to pay off all my debts (student loans, Visa, the like) and as well pay for my funeral. But also I decided it wouldn't be fair to my psychiatrist and counsellor and myself if I don't put in an honest effort. So joining this group and attempting to connect to others is part of that effort.
A: Are you from New Brunswick? (Just guessing from your e-mail address). I'm in Vancouver, but was born in Edmonton Alberta. We'll see how I feel in time... I've wanted to commit suicide for several years now and it's come to the point where I can not bear the depression any longer. Part of me wants for things to get fixed, but the other part is definitely excited about this definite plan. Although, I guess it's not definite since there's no definite date. Strange how the plan to commit suicide makes me want to live so I can carry it out. Bet that u have no understanding 4 Jessica?s worries. If u wanna cure somebody u have to tell him/her the bare truth. It helped me a much that my boss told me what he keeps from me. But until this yelling down I wanted to commit suicide. After that I was cured from this thought.