Opiates & Depression????
Q: I'll try to keep it short.
I'm 29 and have suffered from moderate to severe depression all my
life. Nothing suicidal. I was overhyper as a kid so early on I took
ritalin which did nothing. Later I was given high Lithium doses which
did nothing, somewhere in there was a little red pill but forget the
name.. again- nothing. The diagnosis's ranged from bipolar to
sociopath, manic-depressive to borderline and back again for another
round ~~ For years I gave up and just dealt with it as I grew, then
around 24 I started seeking help again, so far I've tried Prozac,
Paxil, Wellbutrin, Zoloft... etc.. all of which have done nothing.
A:Then I went to the dentist, and was prescribed Vicodin after a major
root canal. The prescription was for 30 tabs, I took one a day for 15
days, then went in for another root canal. Got another prescription
for 30 more, I just kept taking them at the same 1 a day rate.
The first week I started taking them I noticed a MAJOR improvement in
my life. I was stunned and realized it had to be the vicodin, cause
nothing else had changed. I was happy, energetic, spending more time
with my daughter, sleeping well (usually suffer from insomnia) working
better(boss has been very impressed), enjoying hobbies and completing
projects and not spending time on the couch feeling woeful and in a
world of darkness! Headaches & migraines are gone. I did some reading
about vicodin and learned that it gives you a feeling of "euphoria" ..
I never felt euphoric, just normal. Like a normal happy person.
I decided to make sure and experiment a little. I stopped taking them
for 1 week, by day 2 I was back on the couch, irritable, sad with the
not knowing why, by day 4 I was back to the insomnia crap. When the
week was up, I started with the 1 a day again, no euphoria or buzz or
anything but by the 2nd or 3rd day I was feeling like a normal happy
person again.
Has anyone else had a similar experience? The little bit of reading
I've done hasn't given me much of an answer. I'm considering going
back to my doc and asking what's up but am almost certain I'll be
labeled as a junkie, (I'm with an HMO). Another part of me says "so
the hell what." Let this be my new life and let the search begin!
I am a recovering